ALIVE

getting of my meds

a couple of headaches

breaking a sweat

summer is burning

as though the world is on fire

the smoke creeping into my nose

up there until it reaches my brain

there a whole new world unfolds

dopamine and sertraline 

given positive impulses and stimulations

but now the child has left mother's womb

having been nurtured

now nurturing themselves

the world feeling brand new

every single day

in the beginning

walking cautiously on the grass

the fields and forests

talking its first steps

like a new born deer

first unsteady and terrified

now standing tall on two feet

face up into the sun

an illusion of a halo

trust me they aren't an angel

they were once a fairy

falling down to the earth

hitting the stone cold ground

blood and a concussion

still they survived

turned into a human

a living breathing thing

existing and suffering at the same time

gentle spirit being tortured and torched

tormented by their own existence

burning down to ashes

to be rebuilt again

white small pills

supplying artificial happiness

whilst they were down in the trenches

so dark they thought themselves blind

blindfold is lifted

taking another first breath

air flowing into lungs

leaving through holes

heart beating

blood pumping

body coming alive

for another first time

august is a time of

renewal

rebirth

reexistence

reliving